Living the dream

Just when you think everything is right in the world, it comes crashing down. Hubby had a heart attack two days ago. Minor thank God. It means some major changes for him. He is young only 50 and it was a shock to say the least. So many changes in a second my head is swimming and I am trying to figure out everything I need to do to make sure he is around for another 40 years. I always thought if you didnt smoke or drink and ate healthy you were good no worries. Not the case. Heredity does play a bigger part than I thought. I hope everyone in blog land is doing great. Things will be great again around here soon. I am so grateful God gave us a warning and didn't take that wonderful man from me. We have more time. The greatest gift I could ask for. Love Annie

Alone time

Time I want more of it. Alone and naked with my husband. With no one around. I want to scream and not into a pillow. I want him to spank the living you know what out of me and not have to be quite. I am planning a get away this weekend just the two of us. Hotel somewhere, I dont care if its a mile away. Alone time with a paddle, belt, hairbrush and a cane. A great bottle of wine and us two naked for two days. I can't wait. I need it now and if we can't be alone at home, a hotel it is. Hugs

First weekend off since I went back to work. The kids go back to school on Monday. I would love to say we are going to be spending the weekend on the beach but, it will not happen. We are spending the weekend replacing our front porch. Yea. Normally I love diy projects but, I just wanted to relax and have fun. Oh well I will try to have fun anyway. Loud music can make anything fun. Probably why all my kids like and play music right. It has been a very stressful two weeks. Something about shelling out thousands of dollars on college and back to school items that makes me freak. How a school can say that any book is worth 250 dollars is beyond me. This book didn't even have a cover you had to buy a three ring binder to put it in. Crazy stuff. So all the kids are staying home to help with the porch today and I can hear the yelling now. I am sure they have better things they would rather be doing. I hope everyone has a fun last weekend before the joy of school returns. I pray it all goes well here. I also pray that maybe me and my man can get away soon. Hope the next time I have the weekend off we can spend it in a hotel. Maybe an end room where no one can hear the screaming or spanking sounds would be heaven. HUGS world

Here is a hint of my mood today.

Those days when you are home alone and your man is at work. Sad face.

Back pain relief please

Sciatica is a horrible thing. I have had it for about 7 years. I had a real bad hit by it three days ago. Just twisted wrong and owe. I haven't had a real bad bout in a couple years but this one came on quick. Went to the chiropractor and within ten minutes pain was gone. Going back again today and then once a week for a month and I should be back to normal. It amazes me sometimes how I cant handle the pain from my back, but I can take butt pain for an hour and feel pure joy and release. How is that possible? I wish someone could tell me. It makes no sense to me at all that I can take a belt or spoon across my butt 50 times without crying, but the sciatica has me almost to my knees ready to cry in ten minutes. Hoping for a quick switch relief from my amazing man tonight. It's not Friday, but I need to relax my muscles a little and I know that will help. Don't think it will be the wood for a while, but I am thinking a little plastic or cane won't hurt the back. Hugs

Not Again

Well Friday night fun night. Don't think it's going to happen. Daughter invited boyfriend over for dinner. Yea. The guy is great. Treats her wonderful, but sometimes I want to scream. Hello your parents have a life to you know. Well maybe not much of one lately. To many people running around. I will find time if I have to send them all to the movies, on my dime. Mom needs some serious attention, and maybe my own time out. Hubby will see it in my eyes I am sure of it. Will make sure to bend over the stove a little lower when he gets home. Leave wooden spoons next to the coffee pot. Casually rub my body against him as much as possible. I think this little girl is close to the brink of losing it just a bit. If he knew about the things going on in my head and  what I would like to do to him he would throw everyone out tonight. Haha. Here's to hoping the kids will all hang out on the first floor in the familyroom tonight. Hope your weekend is amazing and full of fun. My short rant is over. Thank you and spank away.

Where is my mind

I don't think I can handle all this. Back to work after seven months off. I am losing my ability to do it all and I don't like it. House chores falling behind and I am so tired. Hubby is being a patient man as usual, but I'm not. I need to work to make the college payments, but everything else seems to be falling apart. Not enough time for ANYTHING. Annie is standing here as black hole seems to be swallowing  me up. How in Gods name did I work three jobs two years ago? I have no idea. Hoping a very powerful spank night will help me put things back into perspective and calm me down. Now where can we fit that in? Hope your week is better.  Hugs Annie