Those special moments.

You know those little moments. A soft touch of his hands. The look, the one with the little grin that still makes my insides come unglued. Well I game in the house Friday night and told  Fred the great news. I found a job. I am so happy. It's been a rough 7 months. We have had a very sick child for several years now, but he had been very ill right around the time I was laid off so it was a good time for me to get laid off, but we do live in a very expensive area so its time for me to go back. Are child is better again. Our son has a rare illness that caused him to go blind at 21 years old on Christmas morning no less. It has been a very difficult 2 years and I never really worked thru what happened, I just did the best I could. Then I happened across a few blogs online. I read alot of blogs and a couple really made me start to think that maybe just maybe this could be a great way to deal with the stress without drugs from a doctor. I just didn't want to drug myself to deal with all of this. So one night I wrote hubby a letter. Told him about the spanking I had read about, how I thought that maybe it could help both of us let go of the stress. I told him I needed help, that I had been struggling with having to deal with everything at home and just couldn't do it all alone anymore. Not that I am alone but , he works 12 hour days 6 days a week. I watched out the window as he read the three page letter saw a few smiles giggles and a couple of sad faces, and then he started walking thru the yard to the house. He walked over to me and gave me a hug said I Love you and we will talk when no kids are around. More later Hugs Annie